Sunday, November 30, 2008
I PROMISE a new post very soon.
I have to go to bed though!
ERINS DREAMZ DECODED!
Dreaming about food or eating suggests your mind or body is longing to be nourished. If you're eating breakfast food, it could signal the beginning of a new relationship. If you dream you're hungry, it could mean you're looking for love.
Oh. That could be useful.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Nonsense wakes up the brain cells. And it helps develop a sense of humor, which is awfully important in this day and age. Humor has a tremendous place in this sordid world. It's more than just a matter of laughing. If you can see things out of whack, then you can see how things can be in whack.
You spend your whole life stuck in labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.
Looking for Alaska, John Green
Every storm brings with it hope that somehow by morning everything will be made clean again, and even the most troubling stains would have disappeared like the doubts over his innocents, or the consequence of his mistake, like the scars of his betrayal or the memory of his kiss. So we wait for the storm to pass, hoping for the best even though we know in our hearts some stains are so indelible nothing can wash them away.
Mary Alice, Desperate Housewives
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.
The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
What you buy is what you own, and sooner or later what you own will come back to you.
Pet Semetary, Stephen King
I used to act dumb. It was an act. I am 26 years old, and that act is no longer cute. It is not who I am, nor do I want to be that person for the young girls who looked up to me. I know now that I can make a difference, that I have the power to do that. I have been thinking that I want to do different things when I am out of here. I have become much more spiritual. God has given me this new chance.
Well, I'm not going to be singing about lollipops because I no longer relate to lollipops.
Give in to love or live in fear.
Imagine being stuck in between two giant pickles.
One of them walks away, so you have room to roam, but THEN the one giant pickle ends up unzipping itself(because we all know that pickles have zippers). You end up getting pushed inside of it. THEN the zipper gets zipped back up, and before you know it, you are stuck. The zipper has turned into a hard, crunchy outer surface of the pickle. You could eat your way out, but you'd rather not. It would be messy, and besides, being stuck in a pickle is a difficult thing to endure. Or get out of. Or watch someone endure. Or something of the sort.
I want a pickle.
Don't put <3's at the end of your messages. It's scary.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Moral #1: Marriage is easy. Bella doesn't have to pay for, take care of, or do anything in the way of keeping her marriage going. Not even touching on the whole Mr. Perfect issue.
Moral #2: The only thing worth staying alive for is sex. Bella never stopped considering her choice to become a vampire until she had sex with Edward and then suddenly wanted to hold back. Crying and begging him to screw her because her happy dream was over? Come on girl, have some pride. Pull yourself together, Bella. Sex isn't everything.
Moral #3: Women are only good for babymaking. "Had her body changed because she was a werewolf? Or had she become a werewolf because her body was wrong? The only female werewolf in the history of forever. Was that because she wasn't as female as she should be?" Are infertile females less female because they can't make babies and that's all women are good for? Stephenie thinks so.
Moral #4: All of your problems will be solved for you, so don't try to fix them. That year of wanting to drink human blood? Don't worry about it, you'll just skip it anyway. That baby who's killing you from the inside? Don't sweat it, Edward will just make you a vampire and then you'll be fine. Annoying cub boy won't fall out of love with you? Chill out, he'll imprint on your babies and then you won't ever have to worry about them getting in the way of your perfect love life again. And that leads into #5...
Moral #5: Pedophilia is okay! Just wait until they get old enough (or in Renesmee's case, wait until they're 6 years old because then they'll look old enough) and you're good to go.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I hate when people think that they are out of someone else's league. Obviously if they admire someone, they are going to see all the good in the person. But wouldn't they also have to see the person up close(not literally) and notice and accept their flaws? Don't think you are out of someone's league. It's reduncansheikulous.
Monday, November 17, 2008
well ok i need to write this down to keep it off my mind. At morgans party, i talked to this one girl a little bit. We talked about who had a better life at the moment or something of the sort. She thought that it was me but i thought that in someways its me but in love its definetly her. then we did an experiment. this is the sad part.
we both sat down on the ground outside where people were hanging out. it was concrete mind you. we both sat beside each other on the ground.
M walked to us. He said "P, come on, get up from the ground. Then he said "please".
P shook her head, or said no, or something i cant remember.
Then, N walked over. You can probably guess what happened, but i want to tell you because you are a file on the internet that is helping me stay sane.
N said, "P, get up off the ground. Why are you sitting there? Let me help you up."
Then she got up. I sat there for another minute or so, thinking about how horrible my love life is.
I mean, i don't WANT to be like almost everyone else with their boyfriends and stuff, because they are very immature(which is fine because its only grade 7), but i just really need to be loved then someone other than my family and friends. Its like, really important to me. No one even NOTICED me on the ground there, except for my friend I. I'm not really mad at P for this at all, but i mean seriously, can't SOMEONE change the way love is distributed around here??? Well i guess not.
I have never had my first kiss, I have slow danced with ONE person(and that person danced with like all the girls in our class that came to the dance), i haven't gone out with anyone, i haven't gone on a date, and no one that i 'love' has told me they love me or even LIKE me in that way. i mean seriously, whats going on here??? im not mad at P or anything, and im not jealous of her. I guess im jealous that she is loved sooo much by others(guys in particular lol) and i, sadly am not. at all. but im not jealous of her. i really dont think that i will go out with anyone in eigth grade at all either. maybe even not ninth. why can't anyone every like me that i like back?
well at least i've got friends to lean on. its a pity that they arent in my school or even class. except one so far that ive heard of.
http://www.eatonhand.com/ten/ten000.htm is a good site. It tells about Tendons!
SO TODAY I DIDN'T EAT MY SANDWICH. Jenna gave me her pudding and i ate some of her soup.
This is a really dumb writing thing. I have better things to do.
I am going to write somting for the UPPER CASE news.
In my new dance class there is a girl who is such a show off. I thought that she was REALLY nice before but now she isn't As nice.
I like the other pplz tho.
Chantel Has BEEN missing A lot of classes.
She dosent no the new part of our dances.
I really liek our coustumes.
I hope there is friend day cuz i want jenna to see!
This is way later than i expected to finish wirting this.
The girl is actually really nice, but she does show off a bit.
today i got my dance pictures taken.I kept on calling it a photo shoot. My hair was twisted but it wasn't as good as some of the other people's hair. i am going to be dying my hair soon. It will be BLACK! Really.I already dyed it red. it is almost west hawk. So much has happend since i was in grade five. So much has changed.now there is a new girl in my class, her name is darya.She is really tall.
Tomorrow i am going to sadies house and i am going to meet her nices and nephews. Sadie read me her diary and it was pretty good. I sweared to never tell it to anyone, so i wont even type any of it here.
i wish i colud see fiddler on the roof.
I also wish that i would become faumous and become a singer and everyone would know me and i would make the world a better place.
If that could happen,
There was more in there about my baba but I'm not going to publish it.
That was grade 6, and now is one post from grade 7. It's pretty..umm..odd.
I havent typed out my thoughts in a long time.
Jenna is now @ _____, and i am @ _____.
I really like my school but... i wish ******* wasn't in my class becasue she thinks that i am rude and mean and she thinks i am mad at her. she even admitted that she didnt like me.
I also wish jenna was in my school. There is a little snag in the sweater though...
I am goning to be getting braces in november and i have to have them on for MORE THAN 2 years.AHHH! i havent even lost all of my baby teeth yet.
The phone rang just a momonet ago and it was the public library and
it was a recording.
I got invited to rossara's b-day party.
Jenna did too. the day we leave her party, the new episode of zoey 101 will be on. i think i am gonna miss it!!! oh no!
Me and jenna want to perfrom on halloween night.
The only problem is, where and how?
I need backup 4 this.
Rude Awakinging: Sometimes i think that i can become famous but sometimes i think i will never be, and dont even really want to be.
What will it be?
I know i can go after my dreams but what is my dream?
You know, if you are famous you will get followed and you can be worth
lots of money. and you can never spend a normal day.
OH MAN. I totally thought that I had a chance of being famous.
Okay,here's the scoop:I want to go to Winter Camp at _____ and Jenna does too.We are going to pretend that we are sisters and trick everyone at camp.Annah and Leah are going again.I don't want Annah in my group but I don't know why.
When we go to wheelies,it will be less crowded so I will be able to skate better.I got a bit better today.
Rude Awakining:Will I ever get better at skating? Probably not.
I got to find out why everyone that goes to camp swims,well,just not as good as other people.
I think that entry was from grade 5. This next one is from grade 5 too, and it's longer and more emotional(ish).
I got a ammmmmmmaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzziiiiinnnnggggggggg report card.
I got 1\2 in torah.
At our parent teacher interviews Ms.Hiller gave me my space project Back. I got.....98\100! izn't that good?
Rude Awakening: Why did both of the Jenna's get a higher mark than me? Why does Jenna N think that Jenna S didn't deserve an 100/100,LIKE HER.
Well MAYBE IT WILL CHANGE.
I am SOOOO sad about baba. I was cryin' for a long time.
I hate when that happens only the last time it did i wwas 1 1/2 so i didn't understand as much.
Now i only hav 2 grand parents left.
B4 wat i wanted was to look beautiful and have longer hair faster but now that IT has happened(i don't like that word)I would take back wat i said and wished that mi grandparents will die when i die.
I am so sad.
Well who wouldn't be?
Well mi mom said that i am the Apple of her eye beacause i am the oldest and we always used 2 play 2 gether.
We are not sitting Shiva but we are all coming to our house after 4 bagels and stuff.
I MISS BABA!!!
I bet daddy does too.
Cause he is her daughter.
He has no parents left!
I will go talk to him
I miss her,
It is almost the end of the school year.It has gone by so quickly.
I am SO SAD bout baba but i think that she would like us to remember her by the things that we used to do with her.
I miss having sleepovers at her house.
This next one is about the end of my grade 5 school year, and the title is the place I go in the summer.
______ will be so much fun .But I am wondering about the weather and whether or not sabrina is going to bug me .It's not that i don't like her its just that she bugs me a lot . Help me !!!!
Eventully Sabrina didn't come but guess what??? Jenna met her at humane society camp and made friends.There is about 2 weeks till school and i thought that me,jenna,jenna and Jessica or just Jenna and me could get together and have a little party and make a tradition that we , for now on , will always get together on the day/night before The First Day of school. Mabye some one will help me and phone me over
Write more mext time erin.
The next one was written when I was in grade 6. I am such a strange child.
Well Happy new year! My LAST year @ margerat park.
Rudee Awakining: Y does MRS._____ like illana so much?
I know y. cuz:
Illana is a good student
Illana is liked by ALL of the teachers
She dosen't swear in front of teachers.
She dosen't need to be tutuored by mrs._____
Illana looks perfect, is perfect and even talks like a popular stright A student. Or maybe even a Straight A+ student. lol i CAN'T ever be serious.
Mrs _____ did:
Gave Illana an extra mark in a social studies test.
Uses illana as the example ALL the time!
Dosen't get mad @ her
Gets mad at others
Says mean things like "What grade are you in? Chalkboard isn't a winter word even if you describe how it is" to everyone BUT illana.
Lets illana off easy.
Not for any body else!
Also she once tapped jenna and said: I can see your booby!
I mean who would do that.
She also helps illana in hebrew and lets illana interupt but not morgan,vlad,erin(me),jenna,jessica and myles.
She lets yuri illana and will interupt.But mostly illana,of Course.
I need to write/type more of this journal. Then i will publish it.
...tHeN aGaIn...maybe i will just print it out.
So bye! I need to type on a new topic..dancing!
wow. I remember writing that list out, and then discussing it with everybody. She really was a favourite student. Except shes like, totally awesome.
Friday, November 14, 2008
I'm really tired.
Luckily/Unfortunately, I can't.
It's computer multimedia once again, and after this is Improv. I'm not even IN improv. But I go, nonetheless. I love to watch improv, and I just couldn't be on the team this year. I have so much going on and I didn't want to be baggage to the team. I wish more people understood that I actually have a reason. I do think that I am okay at improv, I don't think that I am bad at it or anything, but I definetely have room to grow. Well, everyone has room to grow, but I have a LOT of room to grow. Don't make jokes about my height. Thanks.
I have a bunch of choral performances coming up, and I have a TON of black clothes to wear. I arranged my closet in such a way that each colour is together. There is surprisingly a LOT of black coloured clothing. I have a bunch of tops, a few dresses, some sweatshirts and hoodies, and then some skirts and pants. Oh, and tights. I don't have a pair of black shoes that are fancy though. I have my new pair of converse(YAY) and a pair of black flats. I also have the CUTEST EVER pair of flip flops. But they are fancyish? I don't really know how to describe them, except I'll just say that they have huge, shiny, black bows on them that make me smile.
MY COMPUTER TEACHER JUST SAID PWNAGE.
I have a lot of dresses in my closet. I don't have much use for them. I wish I went to more fancy party type things. I have this one black and gold dress that I ADORE, but I haven't gotten a chance to wear it in SO long. It still fits me, and the cut is just lovely. Why am I talking about dresses?
So, my fanclub is growing. It's kind of weird to think that I have qualities that people like. And I mean REALLY like. It's a very strange feeling, but I'm all very chill about it. I don't know why I'm so chill. I guess I'm just a chill person.
That's the type of stuff that I am currently doing in class. There is still about half an hour left.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Seriously, try it. It is full of awesome.
1 package of graham crackers
1/4 cup butter
4 cups(or scoops) of any flavour of ice cream
1/2 cup of nuts(any kind you want)
9 inch pie plate
1.Crush the graham crackers and put them into a bowl. Make sure there aren't any big pieces.
2. In a small bowl, melt the butter(or margarine, if you would like).
3. Pour the butter over the crushed graham crackers, and then mix it well. Use your hands to press the mixture in the bowl into the bottom of the pie plate. This is going to be your crust.
4. Put the pie plate into the freezer and keep in it there for about 15 minutes.
5. Take out your ice cream a few minutes before you take the pie crust back out, so it has some time to soften.
6. When the pie crust has chilled, remove it from the freezer, and scoop the ice cream over it. Use a spatula(or the back of a spoon) to smooth the ice cream over the pie. Hot water on the spatula will help.
7. Sprinkle the top of the chocolate sundae pie with the nuts and then add whatever you want on top. I really dislike cherries, but my dad does, so I'd put cherries on this if he was going to have some.
8. Put it back into the freezer and freeze it until it is firm. Then, put chocolate sauce on top(make it look cool!) and then SERVE!
Friday, November 7, 2008
WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?
The unknown. And forgetting or being forgotten. And heights. And I also don't feel comfortable around birds.
WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT STATE OF MIND?
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE OCCUPATION?
Performing, reading, editing and filming a video, singing along to music(alone or with people), having a good conversation and making brownies.
WHAT HISTORICAL FIGURE DO YOU MOST IDENTIFY WITH?
Alice Walker? I don't know? Bette Midler?
WHICH LIVING PERSON DO YOU MOST ADMIRE?
My friend's mother. She is a very wonderful person, and she always tries to put other people before herself. I can't pick just one for this question!
WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FICTIONAL HERO?
Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower, The Trio from Harry Potter, and..
WHO ARE YOUR REAL-LIFE HEROES?
My friends who show me that I can get through things, and my family who has been there for me since forever, and also J.K. Rowling, because her life story is so overwhelming, and it's a powerful story.
WHAT IS YOUR MOST TREASURED POSSESSION?
My fifth Harry Potter book. A small painting that my Baba gave me. Tapes of me recording myself as a child.
WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU HAPPIEST?
I'll change this to When and Where ARE you happiest. At my friend Jenna's house, on stage, outside in the grass, anywhere that people I love are. And at a place with pasta salad that I call camp.
WHAT IS YOUR MOST OBVIOUS CHARACTERISTIC?
I can't pick! Really, I can't! Leave what you think in the comments!
WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE (HATE) IN YOURSELF?
Hmm. How I need to be right? Except, I sort of like that..
WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE IN OTHERS?
When people take EVERYTHING literally, and make comments when they aren't needed. And when people are immature at bad times. I also dislike when people misuse words, especially derogatory terms.
WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST EXTRAVAGANCE?
Food? Haha, yeah.
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE JOURNEY?
WHAT DO YOU MOST DISLIKE ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE?
The fact that i'm bony?
WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER THE MOST OVER-RATED VIRTUE?
Interesting question. No idea.
ON WHAT OCCASION DO YOU LIE?
When I want something. HAHA just kidding. When I feel it's needed. Or to play a funny trick on someone.
WHICH WORDS OR PHRASES DO YOU MOST OVER-USE?
Lovely and Awesome.
IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I would give myself better piano skills, and make myself able to hit bass notes as well as soppy notes.
WHAT DO YOU CONSIDER YOUR GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT?
Observing and taking things into account and using them for my life.
WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE?
WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST ADMIRE IN A MAN?
Awkward-ness, maybe? I can't really think of one. OH! One who can be a friend.
WHAT IS THE QUALITY YOU MOST ADMIRE IN A WOMAN?
I don't know. Not being easy? Haha. Being able to show that they have depth, and that they are fine with showing all of their different sides and personalities.
WHAT DO YOU VALUE MOST IN YOUR FRIENDS?
That we have each other's backs and sides. And even the front of us. Even the most important parts of us, and the least important parts. They accept me for who I am, the good and the bad. And we aren't all dramatic and serious all the time, fighting and such.
HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?
IF YOU WERE TO DIE AND COME BACK AS A PERSON OR AN ANIMAL, WHAT DO
YOU THINK IT WOULD BE?
A human. Hannah Montana's new co-star, anyone?
IF YOU COULD CHOOSE AN OBJECT TO COME BACK AS, WHAT WOULD YOU
A book. Secondhand stores would be so fun to live in.
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO (WORDS YOU LIVE BY OR THAT MEAN A LOT TO YOU)?
"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live."
"Difference of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open."
"It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
"Books are the ultimate Dumpees: put them down and they’ll wait for you forever; pay attention to them and they always love you back."
"Maybe it's good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Like Sam said. Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them."
"So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
"If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me"
WHO HAS BEEN THE GREATEST INFLUENCE ON YOU?
Everyone around me.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
During math class today, after eating all of my food, like usual, I began to do my work. After doing a chunk of questions, I took out a new slice of paper(oh, that saying brings me back to grade 7) and began to draw a face. 15 minutes later, I had covered the entire front of the page. I wish I had a scanner so that I could show y’all, but the page is full of drawings of Harry Potter related things, speech bubbles and all. It’s quite a delight to see it, so I have kept it out of my binder all day.
I haven’t done a word of the day in two whole days! That is long for me. I was planning to have a different one every day for the whole year(or maybe just the whole school year, because I gave them to my friend P) but that didn’t happen. Whatever. There’s still ‘Hug of the Day’.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Yesterday I was being a downer.
I PROMISE that I am going to do that tagging game thing. I'm just busy(AKA I'm a noob).
One thing before I go and do my hair, do some math, do some guys(drawing..DUH)(i really don't need to, that just sounds funny), eat some food, and text or call this one guy who I like a lot:
YOU=CRAZY IN LOVE
CRAZY IN LOVE=BEYONCE
omg does that mean beyonce has a blog?!
(I took spanish last year, so I'm just trying to show off and be cool and stuff like that.)
P.S. OBAMA WON! Any thoughts?
P.S. Everything isn't always your fault. It's mine too.
Monday, November 3, 2008
The Rules for this whole tagging shenanigan(does that even make sense?) are:
Mention the person who nominated you
list 6 unimportant things that make you happy
tag 5 blogs and state the rules on your blog
notify them with a comment on their blog that they have been tagged!
It's just one of those things that make people happy. Including myself. Although, my parents don't seem to think so. Hugs make me happy, even if I'm down.
the sansom window project
click the link. I can't even describe how amazing it is! Well, maybe I could, but if you just click the link, you will know better than if I described it to you.
this show is epic. It has always been that show that I've seen almost every episode of. Besides Lizzie McGuire, that is. My friend J and I figured out that she would be Tish and I would be Tino. Of course.
finding new musical artists that I enjoy
I am now going to tag:
Yay for being tagged!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
you confuse me sometimes.
That's a nice beginning to a post, isn't it?
I came home from babysitting not too long ago, and I watched two of the BEST MOVIES EVER! Well, kind of. It's all opinions, I guess. The movie that I watched with the girls was The Parent Trap. The one with Lindsay Lohan. I can recite plenty of the lines from the movie, and I just love it to pieces. After they were put to bed, I had a few hours to kill, so I watched Harriet the Spy. I brought it with me, planning ahead. THE VHS!
I have a song stuck in my head. It just keeps playing on repeat. It was okay the first time, but after about 67 times, I'm a bit sick of it. It's a good song though, Transylvania Mania from Young Frankenstein.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
You. If you want it so bad, go and DO IT. See where that gets you! *snicker*
So, Halloween was yesterday. I didn't go out, I saw a musical, and it was AMAZING. I dressed up as Penny Pingleton, wearing a plaid dress, glittery gold tights, flats, and curly pigtails. I actually wore eyeliner too! I never really bother. I woke up today and I had a craving to watch a Mary-Kate and Ashley movie. So I took out my old VHS movies and watched about 4. I have a lot of stuff of theirs. I really want to get their new book, Influence. How was your halloween?
1-Come Together-The Beatles
2-Everything I've Got-Blosson Dearie
3-My Paper Hearts-The All-American Rejects
4-Sadie Hawkins Dance-Relient K
5-The Cheapest Key-Kathleen Edwards
6-I Got This Down-Simian Mobile Disco
7-Friday Night-Lily Allen
8-Still Dirrty-Christina Aguilera
9-Dancing With Myself-Nouvelle Vague
10-Are You The One?-The Presets
11-When You're Gone-Avril Lavigne
12-Beating Hearts Baby-Head Automatica
13-Garden of Evil-1997
14-House of Wolves-My Chemical Romance
15-Thunder-Boys Like Girls
17-The Girl-City and Colour
18-Dear Time Traveller-The Scene Aesthetic
19-Dateless Losers-Reel Big Fish
21-Breakfast in America-Supertramp
22-Something That Produces Results-The Early November
23-Capturing Moods-Rilo Kiley
24-Paint it Black-The Vines
25-We Go Together-Grease
26-If I Run-Semisonic
27-You Belong-Hercules & Love Affair
29-Foxes Mate For Life-Born Ruffians
30-Disconnect the Dots-Of Montreal
I'm having Subway for dinner. I haven't had it in a while. What do you like on your sub? I like to have italian bread, turkey, mayo, sub sauce, lettuce, tomatoes and LOTS of pickles! I get the same thing every time.